Born Blue

mynamisntabigal @ 2004-10-05T02:56:00

2004-10-04T18:55:22Z

k its back to xanga. deal with it

www.xanga.com/mynamisntabigal

all i can taste is champagne..

2004-09-27T21:41:51Z

Lately I feel second best. Everyone has something else to do or someone else to hang out with. It just sucks that the people who I thought were the ones I could really count on to be there for me to talk to or even to just hang out when I'm bored are the people that are too busy for me. I feel like a burden to everyone. I'm not saying that I need to be on the top of everyone's list. Come one now, thats a little selfish. But sometimes it's like I'm alone with no one to be here for me ever and it sucks.

Things have definatly changed since freshman year. People have changed. There are those I was so close with freshman year that I dont even talk to now. There were guys I liked that are such losers to me now because they do stupid stuff. There's the group of friends who have all separated into different groups. I'm not a fan of change. Not a fan at all.

So I got a job and now I'm goin to be a lot more busy and a lot more tired. School isnt too great. In history I have an A. Chemistry sucks. English is a good class but I cant seem to actually do well. Pre calc seems easy but staying awake is tough buisness. I just don't know what to do.

I guess I should go start my homework.

all i can taste is champagne
when it hits the brain like cocain
spinning around and around i cant get up without ur help
i've fallen down.

ur loss

2004-09-27T19:18:11Z

so um if no body is going to comment.. then im going back to xanga cuz lj sucks..

righto so school sucks. work sucks. life isnt fun.
boo hoo.

k .. comment. or im switching.

goodbye

ask me !

2004-09-25T03:16:18Z

Ask me 3 (or more, or less) questions (because i know you think my life is super interesting..) and then post this in your journal to see what kind things people want to kno about you! Please do it!! I'll answer all questions truthfully ;-)

first day of hell

2004-09-24T02:28:12Z

today was the first day of work for me at my very first job. oh boy.

heres how it went.
I got there at four and filled out about a bagillion papers. then i had to watch these two "movies". what fun. after that i had a "break" and then was put to work... in the fitting room. what fun that was. i was there THE ENTIRE NIGHT. at 9 my mom comes and we go to leave. we get in the car with all hopes to go get something to eat.. and what do you know her car wont start. so i called my dad to see if he'd come to give us a jump start... um. no he has to wake up at 3am. soo we call AAA. they say it could be up to 90 min. by this time im crying. in reall tears. i saw my car go by and im thinking "what a good luck charm u are" all i wanted was to get something quick to eat, go home.. get comfortable.. do whatever homework i had. and sleep. so i cry it out and get myself together and we go into port city java. i get a milkyway frap. yuck. and a choco chip muffin which was pretty good. then my mom makes me get a wrap cuz i hadnt eaten all day. at port city java it was open mic night. so i got to hear a few bands play. this one band was pretty good. one of the guys who i think was the singer gave me there card to check them out again.. and before they left he said by to me and asked if i was gonna come to any of the shows. ill try.. i cant go saturday cuz i wont be here but the one after that ill try to go.

so that was my wonderful first day of work story. i was bored.. i signed my name till i had writers cramp.... i cried.. i saw bands.. i had a frap..

oh what a night.

anyways.. i guess thast all. comment please.

snap crackle pop

2004-09-22T01:26:37Z

today wasn't bad..
school i felt a little sick.. and i still felt sick when i got home

ive decided.. my first few paychecks are going strait to the "abby hates her cell phone and wants a new one" fund. yess thats exactly where the money is going!

speaking of paychecks.. i start thursday.. 4-9. im excited. the person i talked to said another girl was starting that day too, so thats good that im not the only newbie.

one tree hill is on now.. horay! gotta go watch!

comment cuz u can.

back to the old

2004-09-20T23:46:42Z

ok so i switched back to lj only because u have to be a xanga member to comment on xanga.. however xanga is a thousand times easier to use then this but its cool..so now that all of u CAN comment.. i expect lots of them :)

anyway i redid the layout.. and ithink i did a pretty good job if i say so myself :)
::pats back::

haha ok ..

COMMENT

newbie

2004-07-18T19:46:00Z

xanga: http://www.xanga.com/mynamisntabigal

home is where the heart is... and my bed.

2004-07-17T17:48:05Z

i'll be home tomorrow! ahh im so excited! i packed up my stuff today. i took up 2 suit cases with my dirty clothes and things that i dont need. its ridiculous. today my work load is easy, the only time i have to sit is during awards which is my pleasure because thats the most boring part. today is a boring day. like right now im in kelly and dougs cabin cuz its boring everywhere else. the flinstones are on, i can' twait to go home and just sit on my couch and watch tv alll day. even tho ill only be home for 3 days its ok. ok thats it for now.. cya tomorrow!

mynamisntabigal @ 2004-07-16T14:23:00

2004-07-16T18:26:00Z

my schedule today was great. late wake up so we only had 2nd and 3rd pd. i took the girls to high challenge where other people were keeping them occupied. then lunch.. grilled cheese.. um ok. and then this afternoon its just the play and then 5th pd.. meaning i dont have to work. so i can take a shower and get ready for the dinner dance with out 26 other girls using hte bathroom at the same time. 26 is NOT an exageration.

so tonight is the dinner dance. im going with lee, it should be fun.

ok well thats it. ill be home sunday. horay! call me and we'll hang out!

hum de dum dum

2004-07-13T18:02:38Z

hum im bored. nothing much to do today. i have off for the rest of the afternoon because its free choice then swim. nice! so my plan is to write long letters to becca and then sleep and then shower before the girls get back.

so things here are good. olympics are over, MTV won. yesterday it rained so i went to target and used my atm card for the first time. :) then i did nothing in the afternoon. and last night was a dance and it was wonderful as usual. the dinner dance is the next dance, which is friday i believe. tonight is a movie. i hope its a good one cuz I dont want to watch another movie like Miracle again. i wanted to die during it. its terrible. i highly DON'T recommend it.

so nothing else is new. i miss everyone. ill be home to see you all on sunday!!!!!!! ahhh!!! woooo!! horay horay! make plans with mee!

ok thats it for now.. i love you all.. comment cuz i said that you have to and if u dont then.. then... yeah.. now what!

gsc gsc gsc gsc

2004-07-10T14:34:28Z

camp is funnn. olympics broke out a few days ago. today is day three of the cable bowl. nickelodeon, E!, espn, and MTV. im not on a team because there is no point seeing as how im babysitting while activities are going on.

last night some stuff hapened....yeah..i'll be going home on the buses

i have no appetite to eat so i still feel sick. im tired. 7 days left until i can see my bed :).

um thats it. i love j wade :)

run away run away run away and say goodbye...

2004-07-03T21:22:03Z

i am bored. today is an off day so i had off this afternoon since the course was closed. lovely.

so i helped lee with signs for mtv night and then i layed out and tried to tan. my arms will tan but my stomache and chest stay white. why? why why why??? there is this major tan difference and i don't like i too much.

camp is good. im having a lot of fun. last night was a dance. it was the best dance i have ever been to. it was so much fun. altho it might have been better if it was full staff but it was only half cuz yesterday was an off day too.. thats cool. kelly and doug are off sunday, tomorrow, i think im going out with them. hopefully that wil be fun. NO WIGGLES. oy

so i think thats it for now. im expecting letters from al of you SOON cuz i know i sent you letters. i hope everyones summer is going well.. i know mine is.

alright well.. comment?

hmm...

2004-07-01T13:30:42Z

why does he do this to mee..

why does he ignore me so...

hmm...

bye

what a life...

2004-06-28T19:36:08Z

i am so very exhausted. I go to bed around 12 and get up at 7:55 every morning. There is a small amount of time for a nap in teh middle of the day but I always end up having something to do. For instance today kelly and doug had to run to the bank so i stayed adn watched the girls.. i didn't have time to go back to my bunk so i'm still here. It's not that bad.. im just really tired. everytime i sit for these girls im falling asleep. this morning, alysa was on her chair watching dora and julia was asleep on me.. adn i was dozing. it was bad. im gonna try to sleep early tonight. i need it.

so camp is fun. currently there is a biggg thing happening. i dont want tosay cuz i dont need stories being passed from here to philly. but its bad and bad and bad. but hey.. its their own fault.

right now im watching Knock First. Funn.

um so no one is ever online .. and i miss everyone .. and ihavent gotten any mail yet.. umm whats that about?

and a certain someon ehasnt been on and im upset and that person better come on soon so i can talk t that person .. :)

ok thats it. please comment. it makes me feel special...

where are you......

2004-06-24T01:26:48Z

where is everyone?!?!

the entire camp is in the dining hall for their last orientation meeting.. which sounds like it just finished..

and nobody is online.. and im bored ...

thats all for now

goodbye

calll meee or im meeee cuz im BORED.

i'm here!!

2004-06-21T01:08:53Z

so im at camp.and i can go online cuz camp rocks and being a mothers helper rocks and i love my job. so anyway.. i miss everyone even tho its like my second day here. so everyone calll mee!!! or email me or send me snail mail or im mewhen im one. just keeeeep in contact!! lol so anyway things here are good

the girls im watching. The one year old's name is Julia and the three year old's name is Alysa. not Alyssa. said differntly, spelled differently. currently julia is sleeping on the floor.. very cute.. and alysa is passed out on the couch. and i am watching big daddy until their mom comes back from the meeting. tons o' fun.

ok well theres not much more to type for now so i'll stop..

i love you all!!!

HUG ME!

so long for now to you my friend...

2004-06-19T12:51:59Z

so heres how its gonna go today.

ross hurt his ankel at his concert last night so plans have changed and he wants to leave by noon. WHAT? ok thats fine. i can deal with that.

i have a lot of last minute things to do. i have to clean my room and the living room and pack the car. and get all my last minute stuff into a bag yet unknown. lol..

i might call a few people to say goodbye..

for 56 days i shall not be here. i will be at :

Abby Heller
golden slipper camp
RD #3 Box 3625
Stroudsburg PA 18360
Council girls bunk M

please write to me. or call me .. but mail is more fun..

and i will miss everyone soo much!

and i love you all..

ok goodbye.

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2004-06-18T16:11:57Z

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2004-06-18T15:13:53Z

so today is packing day. and omg i am so overwhelemed. i can't forget anything, cuz i can't exactly come home to get it. so i have to be really careful with packing. but its hard..

and its hott...

and for some reason im hungry but if i eat i get full after like 2 bites.. wierd...

and im tired...

and i dont want to pack!

lucky ducks who are at camp today by 2.. lucky lucky lucky.

well i should go ..

im going to missss youu!!

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2004-06-17T23:36:31Z

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PACKING!!!!!!!

2004-06-17T15:23:17Z

ok. so today is thursday. I leave Saturday. And i haven't done shit about packing for camp! ahhhh!

so today i am not leavng my house until i have some type of packing done. you can come visit me and chill here, but i am not leaving my house.

so not enough time. i wish i left in one more week. school was out and immediatly it was good bye week. i dont like it. i'm goin to miss alllll of my friends. and just when things start to look good, i have to leave. :( don't get me wrong, im so excited for camp.. but still. its too soon.

well its 11:30. i should go eat breakfast and start packing.

come visit me!

if you want me to write to you, leave ur address in a comment, or im me with it.

good bye all...

mynamisntabigal @ 2004-06-16T17:56:00

2004-06-16T21:57:26Z

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so things are good now. i leave on saturday. i have sooo much to do and not enough time to get it all done.

good bye hugs?

yeahh

2004-06-14T20:40:00Z

by this time next week i will be enjoying my home. i can not wait!
this year will be so awesome i can not wait.

school is finally over! so this week is devoted strictly to packing and goodbyes :) :(

please write to me everyone!

i love youuu

sucesss!

2004-06-14T02:16:30Z

this weekend was my party weekend. my first party of this sort. it went really well i think.

leah came first .. and we hung out! woo!
then tim, rachel, sean and drea, and people that i don't remember the order in which they came. then we went swimming.. drea got thrown in fully clothed, i went in cuz i knew they'd throw me in if i didn't.. it was fun. then we dried off had.. food... had cake... did presents :) :) :) adn attempted to watch gothika. it took about 20 minutes for us to get situated.. and once we were.. well lets just say i wasn't happy with the seating arrangement. but whatever. lets not talk about it. so then slowly people started to leave.. and by 12ish all the boys were gone.a nd us girls had ice cream! yummmm. then we watched bruce almighty.. or attempted .. i fell asleep. we woke up.. becca left early :(, we had chocolate chip pancakes, and cleaned up, and played bull, and then they left, and i was alone. :( but i showerd and got ready for a whole new party!

my family came .. they talked.. i tried to stay awake. then we ate dinner. and then cake and dessert. and presents!!!! my mommy got me 16 individual presents. shes the best! adn i got a lot of money, and some jewlery. i loveee my birthday!

so then everyone left.. and i attempted to study. and i couldnt get online so iw as mad. but now im online. and i talked to bekah. and i said id publish this in my lJ so when im done typing you'll see it.

lets see.. so this weekend was fun. im glad i got to see all of my friends together before i leave. im going to miss SOME of them soooo much. and others can go away and never show there face to me again cuz there mean and im upset and grrrrr! but i think thats all for now..

forever6888 haha so want to hear something kinda funny?
x 1stStarISee x :sure
forever6888 (9:59:28 PM): well i think its funny.. u might not see the humor
x 1stStarISee x (9:59:33 PM): lol
x 1stStarISee x (9:59:36 PM): i'll pretend if i don't
forever6888 (9:59:42 PM): ok so my dads car is a lease.. so u have to give it back and it can only have a certain amount of miles on it..
x 1stStarISee x (9:59:49 PM): right
forever6888 (10:00:10 PM): and tonight my brother wants to go out.. (now you see we're waay over the amount of miles we should be at this piont) and he cant find the car key..
forever6888 (10:00:21 PM): so im thinking to myself.. i bet if iget up righ tnow i coudl find it in like 2 seconds..
x 1stStarISee x (10:00:26 PM): lol
forever6888 (10:00:40 PM): but my brother is searching liek frantically for this key. he's opening drawers and closing drawers and checking everywhere
x 1stStarISee x (10:01:01 PM): cause he's a guy
forever6888 (10:01:09 PM): and im liek "why do you need to go out so bad" and he jsut wanted to see his friend. adn then he's like "i need the key for work tomorrow anyway" so i told him to just leave a note for my dad and he'll find it in the morning..
forever6888 (10:01:24 PM): so then my brother gives up and is like " i need to get out of the house. i need to get gatorade" and im like ur a freak goodbye
x 1stStarISee x (10:01:32 PM): lol
forever6888 (10:02:02 PM): lol so he leaves and i get up.. adn the key is exactly wherei thought it woudl be. but i wont tell him cuz we dont need to be wasting miles on seeing our friends or buying gatorade. there are more important thing sliek goin to work and driving me to camp
forever6888 (10:02:11 PM): lol so thats my story and how dumb of a brother i have
x 1stStarISee x (10:02:16 PM): lol
x 1stStarISee x (10:02:17 PM): that's great
forever6888 (10:02:34 PM): the key was where the key alwaaaays is.. my brother is just too dumb to know that cuz he doesn't put things back where they belong anyway
x 1stStarISee x (10:02:44 PM): hahah
forever6888 (10:02:53 PM): so now that i type this it doesnt seem as funny as it did when this was happening 20 minuts ago.. but thats ok
x 1stStarISee x (10:03:01 PM): it's funny
x 1stStarISee x (10:03:29 PM): i enjoyed it
forever6888 (10:03:53 PM): lol
x 1stStarISee x (10:04:39 PM): i think you should publish it
x 1stStarISee x (10:04:44 PM): and we'll call it boys are stupid
forever6888 (10:04:45 PM): hfhahha
forever6888 (10:05:12 PM): ill publish it in my lj
x 1stStarISee x (10:05:15 PM): ok
x 1stStarISee x (10:05:51 PM): i feel special

haha it was funny at the time. or bekah might not have thoughti t funny but i did. if only you coudl have seen how upset he was over a stupid car key. it was fun

ok sweeeeeeeeeeeet dreams!

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